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I am starving!

by supervixen @ 12 Oct. 2005 - 17:42:54

U-(

I can't stop thinking about food, and I'm so hungry that my stomach appears to think my throat has been cut!

I have to go shopping on an empty stomach, and that's usually a BAD idea.

I managed to stick fairly well to the Food Doctor idea, but couldn't do it properly due to lack of proper food. So I've had:

1 Slice wholemeal toast and an egg
1 cereal bar
Jacket potato with cheese & beans
Fruit smoothie.

*gurgle*

:-/

Trying to radiate positivity but boredom has set in now. I offered to take on the work of organising our picture library. Oh boy. Not that thrilling. Never mind, I *will* do this!!!

;D



 
 

Radiating Positivity

by supervixen @ 12 Oct. 2005 - 12:31:33

:D

Today is going to be a good day!

I've been reading the book, and the concept is that you have to really FEEL what you want. So, for example, I want to be slim. I want to have the most fantastic figure, and want to be able to wear gorgeous clothes from trendy shops.:D

I have to make myself feel how I'd feel if I had what I wanted. So...I'm writing it down (the preferred way of doing this is by talking through it all to yourself but let's face it, I can't do that at work and if I do it on the bus they will throw me off - or drop me at a 'special hospital')

So, in great detail, this is what I want, and why I want it, and how I'll feel when I get it.

I want to have a fabulous figure. I want to be gorgeous and curvy, and look absolutely stunning in expensive outfits from Karen Millen and Zara, and Jigsaw, and all the places I'd love to be able to go into. I want to go in and pick up a size twelve skirt, and try it on, and have it slip over my hips like it was made especially for me. I want to be able to see myself in the mirror in a gorgeous, trendy outfit and think 'My God you look good, woman'



I want to look like THAT in a jumper dress!

:>>

I want to walk into designer shops and have my pick of the clothes. I want to be able to go out wearing expensive, very fashionable clothes and look a million dollars in them, walking into clubs, bars and restaurants with TOTAL confidence that if anyone is staring at me it's because they like what I'm wearing.

I want to be super healthy, healthy and fit enough to run for miles effortlessly, and have sculpted, tight muscles that are strong and lean.

I want to buy a completely new wardrobe and kit it out from all the shops that only sell up to a size 16. I want to be able to afford the best clothes, and know that I have a fantastic, sexy body to fit into them. I'm going to feel so good when I hand over the money and walk out of the shops with a few of those exclusive little shopping bags that scream, "I'm rich enough and thin enough to shop in Karen Millen"

I want to be able to buy little sexy scraps of nothing in exclusive lingerie shops, and go out knowing that under my work clothes I'm wearing something absolutely gorgeous and decadent! I want to be able to come to work in smart clothes that make me look really good, and get admiring looks from people.

I really want to feel that I'm slim, and healthy for life. I want to accept that I'm slim, and enjoy every damn minute of being happy about my size, and looking good.

And I feel really good now, just imagining how bloody fantastic it is to be slim, have a fantastic figure, wear the best, most fashionable clothes, and be totally and absolutely confident in myself.

How's that!?

Oh, and the money thoughts are working!

I've sold two more books and been asked to do a 4 page test article for a pilot of a new magazine!

Life changing stuff

by supervixen @ 11 Oct. 2005 - 19:10:35

Well. I have to confess I have had a bit of a bad day. But I'm not going to go into that because I have been newly inspired!:D

Kinga (AKA 'The Minger') from Big Brother was on the front of HEAT this week, and OH my Goodness you should see her. She looks bloody amazing. And she followed a reasonable, healthy diet (by the Food Doctor) and did exercise that while it wasn't EASY - it was simple. If that makes sense. Nowt complicated.

KINGA

I never thought that a woman famous for pretending to have sex with a wine bottle could ever inspire me, but she did.

On top of that, I finally got around to buying the 'Excuse me, your life is waiting' book by Lynne Grabhorn.

Now, faffy as it sounds, the whole idea of it is that you get what you focus on. It kind of makes sense. For example, money. I'm constantly worrying about not having any of it, and it gets worse. I worry about being fat and I stay fat and get fatter. I'm apparently focussing on the wrong things...something to do with vibrations and physics...like attracts like. If you *vibrate* crap luck, you get more back. Look at Andy. He's been lucky all his life - he just expects it now and it happens. Two days in Australia and he's in a £35K job.

I used to be like that...until I started getting crap job luck and let myself focus on being scared I WOULDN'T get or keep jobs. And I haven't!

So...my focus is going to change, and from now on I'm looking at what I WANT and not what I can't have.

So, for starters...

There's a nice Tiffany's diamond necklace :))

And how about:

Well, when I find a picture of a nice Townhouse in London I'll post that too :>>

Dinner is served....I'm off to positively visualise and radiate positivity....;D

Oops

by supervixen @ 10 Oct. 2005 - 23:43:05

I have had a bad evening. >:XX

I managed to force my lazy backside to the gym, and did a work out, but let myself get too hungry. When I got back I couldn't seem to help myself, and while dinner was cooking I ate three Edam slices, some crisps, some roast chicken slices...then had dinner...and then had a bag of crisps. Hardly a gargantuan binge of epic proportions but not ideal for a dieter either. Dinner was healthy though!

:'(

I was stressed and hungry. I've been worrying about money, the wedding is costing such a lot and I am in a financial mess. I'd write freelance articles until late at night every night if I could get the work, but I can't!

The one sellable asset I have is my *snif* books.

I've put my eight Marian Keyes books (mostly hardbacks) on eBay, and four Jane Greens, as lots. I've put another 50 separate books on Amazon. I don't really want to see them go as I'm quite attached to them, but I hope they go to good homes. If I sell them.

http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/help/seller/at-a-glance.html/202-3803624-3930218?seller=A1NZ5HM1WK36WK&marketplaceSeller=1

Have a look if you want any!

:wave:

Anyway. M is away tonight, and I have a numb bum from sitting on this wooden chair putting books onto eBay and Amazon. Tomorrow is another day.

Any ideas for how to make money FAST - please let me know! :**:

Books

I'm hanging in there...

by supervixen @ 10 Oct. 2005 - 14:38:08

...but I am so bored!

)-o

I've planned my next month's staff newsletter as much as I can, done some research, gone through about 300 e-mails (200 of which were the same because somebody's server had a freak out!) 8|

Now I'm just bored silly. Can't believe how bored I am in fact. La la la.:crazy:

I have got Weight Loss Resources open, as well as this site, and all that's keeping me going is e-mail. It's days like this which make me want to eat rubbish I don't need, at least going downstairs gives me something to do!

Maybe I should do some job hunting?!

*sigh*:zz:

I just had chicken & sweetcorn sandwiches for lunch, and a Muller Healthy Balance yoghurt.

Only 3 hours and I'm outta here. I shall spend the rest of my boredom time making coffees and perhaps looking at pictures of Banff on the Electronic Interweb.

Monday - a triumph of hope against experience

by supervixen @ 10 Oct. 2005 - 10:40:36

Well, I really really enjoyed my bed last night. I'm obviously not as young as I think I am, because that 4 AM bed time left me worse than useless most of Sunday!

Anyway, I'm up this morning, back in the office, raring to go. Ish.

I had a delicious (ha ha) Slimfast shake for breakfast, :**: because it's often all I can manage when I'm up at that time and disorganised as hell. Lunch is an M&S sandwich, because we have bugger all in the fridge, we are shopping on Tuesday night when M gets back from Newport.

I'm at the gym tonight, and I won't make excuses about why I can't go! I was 15 stone 10 this morning. Ouch. >:XX>:XX

Don't want to be at work at all, but that's nothing unusual.

Ooops

by supervixen @ 09 Oct. 2005 - 15:46:20

Contributor to my downfall

Well, I got through Friday night just fine. Stuck to the plan - teeny starter; tikka main course (no massala) with Pilau rice. No dessert. No coffee. A couple of Poppadoms, and diet coke in the pub (although I'm convinced I accidentally ended up with full fat instead...)

I was dead pleased with myself. I had a slight panic when I thought I'd left my purse at home...and I was treating M as it's HIS birthday meal. Luckily my loss of colour and panicked expression went unnoticed and I found the offending item, because if I *had* left it at home I would still have been hearing about 'the night I paid for my own birthday meal' on our 25th weddding anniversary!!!

Saturday was good, very busy...the guys bought their wedding outfits (or ordered them) and I managed to find the coat & boots I wanted for Canada in Next (I can NEVER find anything in Next as a rule. As it was, I tried on the size 16 in the shop and looked an arse)

A slight miscalculation about the true calorie value of the Panini in Cafe Nero meant that I had to economise all day (how was I supposed to know that the calorie figure on the back of the sandwich was per 100g, it's not as if they give you a set of scales on your table in the coffee shop is it?) and I only had an omelette & apple for dinner at 5pm.

L was trying on outfits in Monsoon for her bridesmaid dress, she looked lovely. Of course, they didn't have her size in stock in the right colour so she ended up in a candy pink version...for some reason she wouldn't let me take a photo on my phone...

I ordered the coat & boots from Next online, along with a top for going out, and a skirt. How come I get the new Christmas Directory book yesterday and by the time I had looked through and ordered (or tried to) half the stuff I liked was already sold out???

Anyway. I also found some cargo pants in Simply Be, and a pair of chocolate coloured jeans & some trousers in Wallis. Bang bang, ordered, debit card number given, OUCH. And the Next skirt is on a FIVE week delay!!! Oh well, it will stop me from wearing it before we go.

The skirt with the five week waitGorgeous going out top for Canada

So.

The night was still young, I got to K's around 7pm and started drinking. They were all feasting on K's chilli, which smelled awesome, but I sat and steadfastly ignored it. Should have lined my stomach really, a little omelette isn't going to do much is it? :-/

We ended up drinking loads in the Wetherspoons pub, because it was bloody cheap. £2.50 for a DOUBLE voddie & red bull! We were drinking it by the pitcher - well there were ten of us at one point. I tried to include a few diet cokes and waters but I put away quite an amount, then we got booted out of the pub & queued up for De Niro's.

De Niros is cheesey and tacky and I hadn't been there for five years, and it hasn't changed in those five years. We headed for the cheesiest bit where all the eighties cheese was being wheeled out, strutted to 'Hey Mickey' and 'I will survive' (told you it was cheese) and eventually got fed up during a Queen megamix, especially as it was apparently Guns & Roses next. So we moved into the main part of the club...where they were doing a NINETIES clasic dance megamix...blimey, nostalgia-tastic.:yawn:

We could have pulled, between the five of us that made it to the club, SEVERAL times over last night. Mind you, that would have been if we were either NOT fussy at all, blindingly desperate, or wearing beer goggles. At one point I said to J that if she was in some kind of a 'pull a minger' contest, she'd won outright with the odd-looking and quite persitant bespectacled Japanese guy.;D

K had beer tipped all over her feet and handbag, then to add insult, was followed by an irritating specimen who kept invading our space, and clearly fancied K. How many times do you need to turn your back on a guy, walk away from him, and blatantly ignore him before he realises you don't fancy him!? :crazy:

Oh, and another guy walked up to K and said "I'm feeling really horny tonight"

Lost for words, I think she mumbled something back which roughly translated meant "Well, I'm not, so sod off" :wave:

By 2 AM we'd all been kicked out of De Niros too, so we walked back to K's and decided we wanted her breakfast 'McMuffins' at 3:00. So all in all, I didn't do VERY well, although I suspect being on my feet all day (in town for three hours, then out on the town for six) may have burned some of it off.

I'm paying for my indulgences today though. I thought I'd got away with it scot-free but sadly although I'm relatively headache-free I have a minging upset tummy. Oh dear :**:

I reckon I put away 2500 calories yesterday, and 30% of them were from alcohol...I'll be on BRAVO TV 'Booze Nation' for binge drinking if I'm not careful!! It makes me laugh how many kids there were clinging to lamp posts looking as if they were going to hurl. There was no drunken indiscretion from our group...mind you there wasn't much to work with if any of us HAD been tempted! :DD

Anyway. After about 4 hours sleep, I was awake and Matt came to get me at 11. I've had a nice long bath to wash the smoke & stink of De Niros out of my hair, and now I intend to chill out and do very little all the rest of the day. I may have slipped up a little, but back on the wagon again today!



 
 
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